Monday, February 23, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Feb. 22
Hey all (really just Christina...hahaha)
Good day today...getting life back. Getting joy back. re-entry is not easy. there's a lot of junk in me. i wanted to get it out so I could be a good example for people. in essence, so i could look good enough for people to want to follow...but that's wrong. I want it cleaned up so I can follow. I want to live fully, joyfully, unattached, unhindered, unshaken, unwavering...I want to live full throttle (good name for a group or conference/movement, huh?...don't steal it!) I've lived relying on my emotions too much. didn't think i was like that. but i can see it now. But freedom is what I long for. I've for too long allowed people to give me their definition of myself and how i live. Christians...so it didn't seem so bad. but it was sneaky. it seemed holy to want to serve and allow people to speak into my life. actually in and of itself it isn't bad...BUT...if anyone's voice is more recognizable and/or has more weight than MY SAVIOUR'S (british spelling...for you James)...something is wrong. that relationship is perverted. it has been my fault. I've given too many people God's measure. But freedom is my portion, Galatians 5:1!
I went to see CP play the bass today. His pastor is funny.
Good day today...getting life back. Getting joy back. re-entry is not easy. there's a lot of junk in me. i wanted to get it out so I could be a good example for people. in essence, so i could look good enough for people to want to follow...but that's wrong. I want it cleaned up so I can follow. I want to live fully, joyfully, unattached, unhindered, unshaken, unwavering...I want to live full throttle (good name for a group or conference/movement, huh?...don't steal it!) I've lived relying on my emotions too much. didn't think i was like that. but i can see it now. But freedom is what I long for. I've for too long allowed people to give me their definition of myself and how i live. Christians...so it didn't seem so bad. but it was sneaky. it seemed holy to want to serve and allow people to speak into my life. actually in and of itself it isn't bad...BUT...if anyone's voice is more recognizable and/or has more weight than MY SAVIOUR'S (british spelling...for you James)...something is wrong. that relationship is perverted. it has been my fault. I've given too many people God's measure. But freedom is my portion, Galatians 5:1!
From Mikachu...I LOVE her pictures so funny and creative!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
WE WON!!!
tonight we had a game...DOUBLE OVER-TIME!!! we played pretty well together. i'm proud of the team. they work so hard. actually it's a different team now than 1 1/2 months ago. One of our players had 31 points. i was proud of them.
But my greatest joy tonight came when one of the JV players asked me for advice about some relationship issues he was having at school. I'M SUCH A SAP! but that was so wonderful to me. i guess i really like helping people and connecting. i'm so not a loner. i thought that i had a little of that...but that was only disney world because my roommates were crazy! ha!
goodnight children!
But my greatest joy tonight came when one of the JV players asked me for advice about some relationship issues he was having at school. I'M SUCH A SAP! but that was so wonderful to me. i guess i really like helping people and connecting. i'm so not a loner. i thought that i had a little of that...but that was only disney world because my roommates were crazy! ha!
goodnight children!
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