(sigh)

I miss Will Landry so much!

in Sint Maarten

I'm here with the Wheaton College gospel choir and they are reminding me that I used to have so much fun in my life....what happened?!?!

me today

Development..."working out salvation"...not easy nor is it fun. However, I Corinthians 1:8-9, "He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, IS FAITHFUL." I'm preaching this to myself. I see I need sooo much work and help. Right now in this frame of mind, I believe the greatest thing I need to learn is trusting/relying on/living by the Spirit. How is that done exactly? How do get a softer heart? How are my ears unclogged from the foolishness of the past to hear the directions and receive the Love for now? I believe it' s my yeilding & His work (the act of yeilding is work however). I need my family. We have to step it up for the Cause of Christ, for the Kingdom, for the King.

Philippians 1:6, "being confident of this, that HE began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

Not from an external morality, but from a POWER that's within!!!!
-Alistair Begg

Not for the cause of humanity, but for the Love of Jesus!

Feb. 22

Hey all (really just Christina...hahaha)

I went to see CP play the bass today.  His pastor is funny.

Good day today...getting life back. Getting joy back. re-entry is not easy. there's a lot of junk in me. i wanted to get it out so I could be a good example for people. in essence, so i could look good enough for people to want to follow...but that's wrong. I want it cleaned up so I can follow.  I want to live fully, joyfully, unattached, unhindered, unshaken, unwavering...I want to live full throttle (good name for a group or conference/movement, huh?...don't steal it!)  I've lived relying on my emotions too much.  didn't think i was like that.  but i can see it now.  But freedom is what I long for.  I've for too long allowed people to give me their definition of myself and how i live.  Christians...so it didn't seem so bad.  but it was sneaky.  it seemed holy to want to serve and allow people to speak into my life.  actually in and of itself it isn't bad...BUT...if anyone's voice is more recognizable and/or has more weight than MY SAVIOUR'S (british spelling...for you James)...something is wrong.  that relationship is perverted.  it has been my fault.  I've given too many people God's measure.  But freedom is my portion, Galatians 5:1!  

From Mikachu...I LOVE her pictures so funny and creative!

WE WON!!!

tonight we had a game...DOUBLE OVER-TIME!!! we played pretty well together. i'm proud of the team. they work so hard. actually it's a different team now than 1 1/2 months ago. One of our players had 31 points. i was proud of them.

But my greatest joy tonight came when one of the JV players asked me for advice about some relationship issues he was having at school. I'M SUCH A SAP! but that was so wonderful to me. i guess i really like helping people and connecting. i'm so not a loner. i thought that i had a little of that...but that was only disney world because my roommates were crazy! ha!

goodnight children!