Recently things have been "looking" better...in some sense i'm still in the same spot...perspective has changed. pray i continue to look to the Hills...(not the tv show).

1 Cor 15:10, "But by the grace of God i am what i am..."

"The main thing about Christianity is not the work we do, but the relationship we maintain."
-The Big Oz (Oswald Chambers)

Stepper...

Hey all!

Well, it's tuesday morning. I'm doing well today so far. well...i shouldn't say that...i mean i feel ok internally. that shouldn't determine how i AM...Emotions can't move me so much. I'm too emotional of creature for that.

But I'm not down this morning...that's cool. One issue i've dealt with is cruising through life. I MUST drive (but only as much as God will have me to). Gotta get somethings done accomplished. I also need to learn to take care of the little picture FOR the big picture. I try to get the big picture taken care of and i paralyze myself...it is neither wise, nor is it fun. I have too much energy to sit on it...Gotta get moving. In my determination. In my relationships. In my decisions. I think God is waiting for me...well...I'm waiting for him. I think I've moved on every opportunity he put out in front of me. anyway...Gotta get moving. Gotta pray. Gotta pray. Gotta pray.

MUSIC TIME~!!! \(^_^)/

So i just bought a lot of music on iTunes...it really makes me feel better...haha!

So since i was scattered in choosing the albums from which i bought music...i'll briefly discuss the ONE complete album i purchased:

Anthony Evans
The Bridge

So this is the third AE album. I really like the music and his approach from his first two albums. This one however, is distinctly different than the previous two releases. It is composed mostly of rearranged popular CCM praise songs. This dude can sing! Not a major runner or riffer, but just has a nice voice and likes to belt! (I'm a baritone, so i can't really handle what he does myself...haha! My hat's off to you sir.) One main reason I like The Bridge because it reminds me of my college days and I'm getting some new OLD music. Refreshing renditions, but not over the top. They are still respectful of the original melody, while holding an interesting quality to be sung in churches with different cultural makeups in the US. ;-)

Top picks: Everlasting God (wanted more "Oh's" though), In Christ Alone
*Also...I like the cd jacket cover...color combo and all...it's great! I want that shirt!

yo all! i don't know who reads this...but eh! it's ok.
i'm sitting in my room...trying to figure out my life. i'm not a jumper...i think i'm a stepper...but steppers seem to react too slow. So what to do?! どうしようかな〜！...hmmm....

i know i feel very disconnected. from what?! everyone pretty much. lonely...alone...i dont know which one this time. i'm at a stage that it seems most of my friends have passed already...OR they have someone with whom they can decide. i don't like it....i mean...i'm happy for all of them...i'm not happy right now. is my problem committing? maybe! to relationships, events, staying in one place, etc...i'm not sure...but thanks to Mark i got some good music on itunes today...music helps me so much. phyiscal activity helps me too...gotta get on that.

help me my friends.

So....i forgot about the music updates i was supposed to do! Sorry!

Kevin Levar & One Sound - "Let's Come Together"
currently 7 out of 10 stars

So refreshing! praise & worship-y, yet it has some heart penetrating songs (i.e. A Heart that Forgives). A very honest yet God centered album all together. It's been good for me since March.
My jams are Hidding Place and the title track Let's Come Together. Songs that makes one ponder are A Heart that Forgives and What a Love (simple yet what a question). Go get it.

back from Hawaii and LA

such a fun trip! reunions are the best!!! nothing like'em!!! that can preach!
i'm hot...write more later.

i'm sleepy...but it's hot...

i wish i hadn't erased my blog from before...but what can you do?!

I'm up because i went to sleep at 10:30pm...and it gets soooooo hot in my room.

soooo recently, i've noticed how socially needed i am. more so than i thought before. is it because that's the way I am? or is it because I fail to allow Jesus to hold me in that area? or is it because i've let too many people in too quickly, and when my expectations or hopes aren't met...pain?!

why have i been so sensitive lately?!

Am I on a cycle...hahaha! So many great things have been happening to/for me! I'm not in a complaining mood. I still just feel lonely...not extremely lonely, but abnormally lonely i believe. Lord help me! AND...i'm always tired!!! why?! that's no fun! ha! Maybe i DO need to go see a couselor (besides the Holy Spirit)...

I know that recently, I've REALLY been missin Japan...i mean like the past 2 or 3 days.

Hawaii will be good...i hope! i'll try my hardest to have fun!

pray for brenden & milo!!!